Yes, one more blog.
It turns out that there is a lot happening in my head, but I don’t always find the right people with whom to share these things. So, yes… one more blog. This will just allow me to drop all these thoughts, and you never know, to confront them with others.
I spent much time these past years reading, learning, searching information on a bunch of subjects, with no real line of conduct. Today, it is time for me to give back a little bit of the info. Firstly because for the moment, it is a bit of a mess in my head, and failing to pour my thoughts and memories in a pensieve, I shall put them here.
I also want to reconnect to a certain sense of discipline, a sense of attention.
My attention is really diluted, I do several things at the same time, I think several thoughts at the same time, I am not at all centered. I digress.
To force me, once from time to time to sit at my computer and write without another distraction is perhaps what I need. Do one thing, write, just for the sake of it.
I always wrote, always liked it. I remember the time when I wanted to become a writer. This is something that I’ve lost over the years because when you’re a responsible adult, you do not pass your days writing in a journal. Well, it is what I heard. And it is a pity.
When I was a child, I did not ask myself so many questions. I lived in my little world, I had a lot of imagination and I was not lacking creativity. As I grew up, I was asked to leave this imaginative spirit and to fit in, to comply, to get a degree, then a job. Well I tried to resist, I even made small revolutions. Then, I complied. Today, I have done things well, I have this degree, I have this good job, but I get bored. I get so bored.
But now, I start the revolution again. I’m looking for this light and creative spirit. This will be another aspect of this blog. When I log back in my creative mind, I have fun and I loose track of time. In these moments I vibrate, I feel that I am fully alive.
I have so many things that I want to share!
First step: silence the inner critic in me who is telling me that no one cares of what I write. This is not true, there is at least one person interested in it and it is me!